This seems to be a theme that keeps coming up for me; the universe’s not-so-subtle way of telling me that I need to learn the lesson!
We have had a wild two years, jammed full or high ups and very low downs. As I look back on now, after everything I have learned from the people who have entered and left my life, I have come to realize, I created all of it. I was the on who orchestrated the entire journey, both good and bad.
So I have to ask myself… If I created it, why did I add in the bad parts, why suffer through the hurt, pain, and sadness? Simple answer, fear!
I had fears that I was unable to conquer or refused to face at those times. I feared I was not good enough, that I could not make it by myself, that I would fail, that I was not strong enough. I also feared what others would think of me, how they would respond to me, or how they would treat me. The truth of the matter is, I allowed the fear of what could be to change my choices and thereby change the future in which I created.
A young lady I know posted a meme today that said, “Pain changes a person”. Pain is just an emotion, it nor any other emotion can not change anything. What happens is we allow the fear of pain to motivate us to change who we are in the hopes that we will not be hurt again. Problem is, there will always be pain,
There will always be some sort of emotion that we do not want to feel in our life, be it hurt, pain, sadness, loneliness, even failure. They will always be right around the corner; it’s the human experience. However, we have a choice in how we approach them. We can either choose to fear them, allow ourselves to be motivated to change who we are and how we react to the situation and our world; Or we can face those emotions and the fear head on, allow ourselves to live through the situation, embrace and feel the emotions, take lessons from them that will make us stronger, and then choose to release the effects of them that are not beneficial to us.
Looking back on the last two years, and even the rest of my life, I can point out so many times that I allowed fear to motivate me into changing how I reacted to situations and to people. It could have changed my life in so many ways had I faced fear at those times, but that in itself is fear or what-could-have-been, and I am more than satisfied and overjoyed with my life and the people who are in it.
It is regrettable that it has taken me so long to learn the lesson, but one thing is for certain… I will no longer allow fear to motivate me to change my actions or reactions any longer!