Talk about a huge wake-up call!
I have had some crazy things happen in my life. Things that I would have never consciously chosen to happen. Things, people, situations that caused a lot of pain and hurt, and that I resented for a long time.
Truth of the matter is, I unconsciously did choose those things. Mostly out of fear. Fear of judgement, fear of loneliness, fear of rejection, fear of failure, and even fear of showing my true self, to name a few. I have come to realize that fear is a very powerful, and often times destructive, emotion that every single person struggles with constantly. Sad part is, that fear is mostly in our own heads. It is worry about something that may or may not happen, with usually a slight chance of it actually happening the way we are fearing. Unfortunately, while we are spending so much time fearing something, we are putting that out into the universe, and the universe delivers…. every time!
A few years ago, my husband came to me and said he wanted a divorce. I was devastated, but also in the back of my mind was a voice saying “Figures! This always happens.” Looking back, I began to realize where it was my fear (this always happens) that was the catalyst for the whole situation. I had never had good luck in relationships, and I held on to that fear when it came to my husband. No matter how good he was too me, I always had that thought that he would leave. My fear created my drama. Lucky for me, he is a really good man and has helped me work through my crazy.
I have been taking a good long look at my past, and all of the craziness that has happened, and I am finding the fear that caused it. I am looking at that drama, and realizing where it was that I created, invited, or associated with it, and learning to change my thinking for the better in the future. It’s not an easy process, but it is a peaceful path as you go along it, because you start to release the fear and allow the good things to manifest instead.
May the light within you light your path,